Ok! That’s a good question. Honestly,
I don’t remember. And frankly, a little too late to answer this question, I suppose!! ;-)
All the while, growing up, there were different things I wanted to do. One year I wanted to be
a newsreader, another year I wanted to be a journalist, some time in between I wanted
to pursue dance full-time, and at other times I wanted to be a CA, you know
follow dad’s footsteps and all that. One thing I was extremely clear about was
that I would never be an engineer or a doctor. Aversion to science influenced
that decision pretty heavily. ;)
But then once I finished
schooling and graduation in commerce, I didn’t really have a clue as to what I really
wanted to do. At that point I wasn’t very keen on CA, having given the
foundation exam and not faring well, the ego took quite a beating! :-/ A lot of
my classmates were bandying about MBA, CAT, XAT etc., so I decided to join that
bandwagon. Took a year off after graduation, did my MBA preparations (yeah
right!) and then got into ASB. And then finished that, got placed and now I am
in a job that has nothing to do with what I majored in MBA. Okay! Maybe just a little
bit to do with what I studied.
If you still ask me, what I really
want to do, I have no clue yet. All I know is, this corporate career doesn’t warm
the cockles of my heart, even if it does pay the bills. And currently, I am not
exactly gutsy enough to venture into that something that I don’t know for sure.
A few months ago, though, when the lines on my forehead were getting a little
too deep for my liking, I wanted to call it quits on the corporate front by
mid-life, move to the foothills of some mountain and set up a cottage there and
be there, writing, reading etc., but that sounds far-fetched even to my ears
now. Sigh! But maybe someday, huh!
The one thing I was and still
am when it comes to it, is that I was never the ambitious sort. Worst case, my
ambition would probably be to ensure that I have enough security – emotionally
and financially – and I’d be sorted. So, I think yeah, contentment was the one thing
that I always leaned towards.
Right! I think I am getting a little too preachy here! :P
Even now, my ambitions are
still stagnant, in terms of career and such. As long as it pays the bills, I am
good.
As for the rest of what makes
my soul happy, I have my diversions! :)
