A friend of mine wrote a while back about 'friendships going sour'. I could totally identify with it. I mean I am sure all of us or rather most of us have been in that awkward situation caused by something or someone where you don’t know what else to say, or to just walk away… you don’t know what to say that would make it right again, and somewhere you are even sure that things will never ever be the same again. If you have not been in such a situation, then lucky you!
Me – I have been in those situations a lot of times… Some of them have been for no fault of mine, and some of them were because we both saw separate roads and chose to take them… and few for maybe some fault of mine… and even fewer for reasons I still cannot fathom… but they have all had one thing in common. They have all led me to doubt myself at various points in time, wondering if something is the reason with me that stuff like this keeps happening… Of course the hurt too! In some cases!
For all my life, I had thought that friendships happen because of the wavelength-match between two people. In most cases I still do! But in some of the afore-mentioned cases, there have been weird conditions/causes due to which the so-called friendships did not work out. And it’s in those ones where the fault is for no reason of yours that it hurts the most.
But now when I think about most of them, especially the ones that hurt me the most, I find them funny. The reasons said and discussed then, the fights over things that seem so trivial now, and some are not even worth being said or discussed. And I wonder, how my life would have been if those people had still been friends with me. And some of them were people that I thought would turn out to be my best friends. I really did! I mean, at one point of time, we were so close that Damon and Pythias would have had a complex. And then shit happens! But either ways, I guess, things that happen, happen for a good. -I have come to a point in my life where I’ve realized who matters, who never did, and most importantly who doesn't anymore. And I'm not sad.
I thought I lost quite a lot of friends during the past few years, but then, thankfully, I have gotten back in touch with some of them recently enough and the rest of whatever happened seems to be a thing of the past! And I am really very glad about it. Some of those people were absolute gems! :-) I missed them when we were not in touch!
And I have people in my life right now, who not even in my wildest dreams I thought I would be best friends with, who are so close to me in one way or the other that without them, something seems to be missing! Thank god for you guys! :-)