Wednesday, December 31, 2008

The last curse before a new year!!!

This is called blogging in bulk…

I have a few too many mails regarding the late evenings we spend in office especially on Friday’s when you cannot even say ‘TGIF’…

The nincompoops in my office have this sadistic pleasure of fixing up meetings and reviews for the last possible minute thereby ruining what would effectively have been the best way to spend an evening! Doing anything else but not sitting in office…

Today being New Years Eve what would one expect from a normally sane set of people… No! You expect too much! The jackasses have gone and fixed up meetings till 7:30 in the evening for just the units that we handle…! Goddamn! I dunno what to say to that!!!

So while the rest of the world is outside busy making merry, and plans for the evening… or putting plans that they have made we are sitting here and listening to a bunch of people go on and on about how good and promising their business is… Wow! I have no words to express my joy! :O Simply exhilarated!

I guess this is again one of those raving and ranting posts..! But when you have to deal with people like whom I meet… well… it is valid! And fair enough!

I wish to god that I can curse the asses who have done this and have gotten their sweet revenge but well... Today being NYE and all that… I will just safely say…

I wish whatever they have done unto others will return to them multifold! As you sow, so you reap! :D:D

Heheheh! There!! That should take care of it! :D… We all know what the outcome would be..!

Good luck Fellas and Fellis!
Have a great year ahead! :-)


Oh and by the way, I got engaged last week.. :D (Yes the poor soul! I know..! :P)

To a friend I have known for more than 4 years before we decided to take our friendship to another level..!

Suffice to say the parents are very glad :P

And of course so are we :-)

And another year passes by....

So another year has gone by…!

And so fast..!

Actually I dunno what to write…!

I can as well say “Happy New Year” and be done with it… but somehow that does not just seem fitting…

This year celebrations seem to be a lot less subdued than last year… probably because of whatever happened around the world!

Someone said - “When the clock strikes twelve on December 31st, people all over the world cheer and wish each other a very Happy New Year. For some, this event is no more than a change of a calendar. For others, the New Year symbolizes the beginning of a better tomorrow.”

For me it is the beginning of a better tomorrow… It always has been... For the expectations that I have from the coming year… For the changes both known and unknown that will take place in the year… For looking forward to a new beginning in more ways than one… For being aware of what I did in the past year and if there were any mistakes, not to repeat them…

Each year New Year is different … right from the way it is celebrated to the way how it unfolds…

And with that note…

Wishing you a very HAPPY NEW YEAR… Hope you have a great year ahead and a wonderful one filled with all prosperity, good health and cheer…

The New Year’s come, the old years go,
We know we dream, we dream we know.
We rise up laughing with the light,
We lie down weeping with the night.
We hug the world until it stings,
We curse it then and sigh for wings.
We live, we love, we woo, we wed,
We wreathe our prides, we sheet our dead.
We laugh, we weep, we hope, we fear,
And that's the burden of a year.
-Ella Wheeler Wilcox


Friday, December 5, 2008

Heart Waves...

She was walking along the beach, her feet playing a game of catch with the waves.

She was all alone. And that was how she wanted it to be.

Some quiet. A little bit of tranquility. And a whole lot of peace.

She was here after a long while. The last time she came here was not by herself.

She liked this time of the day.

Twilight. Neither day nor night.

What was it about this magical hour that the beauty of the night and the day all came together? And was she at the best place or what?

Where better to experience the gamut of colors that were flooding the sky, knitting itself seamlessly through the clouds scattered in the vast expanse? It took her breath away. As always.

She remembered a time long ago on the same shore. Then she was not alone. She had a reason for being there then. And she had never wanted to be alone then. Back then, she was with someone who she loved and lived with. She was with someone who made everything else in the world seem secondary. She was with someone who made her feel like the queen of the world and who made her feel special. She had felt wanted.

But that had soon come to a finish. She had thought that the world began and ended with him. She had thought herself the most luckiest in the world. She had finally felt her life falling in place.

Now it felt like failing. It felt like someone had pulled the carpet right from under her legs and she was left with nothing but the dark cold floor. It was almost like she was caught in a whirlpool of sand that was slowly choking her, filling her lungs with no space to breathe. She was flailing and failing to hold on…

She wondered what had gone wrong! Where had she made a mistake and how had she fallen into the deep dark pit that she was always aware of, yet careful about…

She had been deceived. She thought she knew him. Apparently she did not! She never knew him. She never got beyond the outer surface charm that had misled her.

But now it was over. Now she had the floor again.

She walked slowly towards the waves. The water splashed over her feet. It swirled over her knees. She walked against the current pushing her back.

And then as though the sea understood what she wanted it pulled her in close to its bosom.

The water rose above her.

It was over her.

Truly over.


Her mind was in turmoil.

She had been seeking questions to these never-ending queries in all the relationships that she had ever been in.

In the hope that at least one of them would help her solve the mayhem in her.

Do expectations actually increase in a relationship that you are actually very comfortable in?

Do you tend to take a person for granted even when you know him/her inside out, with all their faults and shortcomings?

Why does it feel weird when something that has been happening habitually breaks routine and especially when you are aware of why the routine was broken?

Why do you get that tug in the heart when the special someone who messages/calls without fail every morning does not do so one day? Is that fear? Or anger? Or a feeling of let-down?

Why is there an awkward pause when something goes wrong between two people who are together in some capacity?

Why do you feel so odd when someone you care about behaves a little indifferently with you for reasons that are actually known to you and you know you are not the cause for the behavior?

How do you tell someone that you need space from them without causing in them a feeling of unwanted?

Why does being in love mean to have to talk everyday and tell every single time that you love each other?

Do all these queries and many more have answers to them or are they just that… questions?

She thought about her past.

She thought about her present.

Tried to draw a parallel between them.

And drew a blank.

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Something on a lighter note...

What breed of Dog are you?
You Are a Siberian Husky
You love to stay active, especially if running is involved.
You are athletic and strong. Working out and playing sports just feels like fun to you.

You are cooperative and friendly. You get along with others, especially when you're on a team together.
You have strong instincts. It's sometimes hard to ignore what the voice in your head is saying.
What does your handbag say about you?
What Your Handbag Says About You
You tend to be relaxed but alert. You keep your eye out for anything unusual.

You are a high maintenance person. You feel lost outside of your normal environment.

You are open and comfortable with who you are. You don't hide anything.

You are an organized and together person. You are competent and successful.

You are practical and down to earth. You tend to be a rather reserved and quiet person.

What your name says about you?

What Your Name Says About You
Your name says that you are mostly:

Ambitious but stubborn

Your name also says you are:

Artistic but extreme
Charismatic but impulsive
Independent but distant

How independent are you?
Your Independence Level: High
You are extremely self reliant and autonomous.
You are definitely into doing your own thing.
But you also wouldn't turn down help if you needed it.
You follow your own path, but you don't do so blindly.
What hand gesture are you?
You Are an "A-OK"
Your life philosophy can be summed up as, "Whatever will be, will be."
Your greatest wish is to live each day a little better than the next.

You are naturally calm and stable. Some people would call you a rock.
You feel one with the world. You are a spiritual person, though no one who knows you would guess it.
What dance are you?
You Are Ballet
You are quite introverted. You enjoy keeping to yourself and cultivating your talents.
You are dedicated and focused. If practice makes perfect, you're willing to keep practicing.

While some people may dismiss you as boring, you can be quite edgy and interesting.
You can fit in almost anywhere... and your style ranges from conservative to funky.
There! That made me feel good about myself! :-)

The beginning of a new end....

I have not blogged for some time now…

Not that I did not have anything to blog about! But whatever I wanted to blog about previous to the Mumbai attacks now seems very trivial after the latter happened.

I wanted to blog about the attacks as soon as they happened. I did not. I could not bring myself to do it. And what could I have written about?

I have come across a whole lot of blogs on the Mumbai attacks. Blogs talking about the resilience of India, the Spirit of Mumbai, India’s 9/11, trashing the politicians, coverage of the media, the grit of the NSG commandos, the lives given for the country, the lives taken for the country, statistics of all sorts, number-games, mind games, comments by the people we chose to run the country, and a whole lot of other issues… done to death!

And I still am at a loss on what to write about…

Do I write about what a joke our country’s Intelligence is? Do I write about how we failed to take the threats that were posed seriously? Do I write about the Red Tape that exists at all levels in the functioning of the country? Do I write about the insensitiveness and stupidity (for lack of a better word) of the media when they were interviewing the family and friends of hostages? Do I write about the hundreds of lives that were lost in the attack? Do I talk about the heroism shown by the NSG and the people who laid down their lives to save ours? Do I talk about the tactless remarks and thoughtless actions by people after the assault was over? Do I talk about what a gory attack it was and how it was dealt with? Do I talk about how the bereaved families will be feeling? Do I speak out about the surge of patriotism or the helpless anger that I am feeling at our security being threatened and ravaged like this? Do I point out how none of the ‘publicity-hungry’ politicians have given a decent interview or their take on the events that occurred? Do I mention how some of the prominent people running our nation or part of it stepped out and let other people step up to the act?

I have a lot of questions… Unfortunately I have a whole lot of answers for them too!

We fought a raging war against the attack and it looks like the beginning of a new end!!

How many more lives will be lost? When will it all end? Or will it all end?

That I don’t have an answer to…

And lest I forget, Kudos to Hemant Karkare’s wife and Major Sandeep’s family for their actions! I fully stand by them!

I am feeling a multitude of emotions right now…

Anger at being let down by the people we voted in at every step, Disgust at the way some people have been acting after the attack, Sadness at the innocent lives slaughtered, Pride in the NSG commandos and the brave officers who laid their lives (Hats off to them!), Fear at where what will happen next to whom, Hatred towards those people who thought they could take us down, Skepticism at how the Government is going to handle the next crisis….

People from all over the world were touched in the attack in some way or the other… They voiced their outrage. We heard them out. They offered their help. We accepted it.

What are we going to do about it? Of course we will still cast our votes and still vote in the same people who are running our country now and in the past.

When will we learn? When will someone take the next extreme step a la ‘A Wednesday’?

Maybe it’s time for some fresh new blood in the system. Maybe some young blood! People with some aggressiveness, attitude and risk-taking bent of mind. People who won’t take injustice meted out to them lying down! People who won’t take no for an answer!

That’s probably what this country needs… Young Hot Blooded people who are mature enough to think beyond their own selves and think in terms of the bigger picture…

And that will just be the beginning!

Grahanam - A review!

It has been quite some time since I penned something on this blog, and even longer, since I wrote a movie review. But there is no good time ...